how do you like my ufo?

Seriously too tired to even function.

Here's a nice little anecdote from The Philosophy of Andy Warhol by Andy Warhol (duh) for you:

"People's fantasies are what give them problems. If you didn't have fantasies you wouldn't have problems because you'd just take whatever was there. But then you wouldn't have romance, because romance is finding your fantasy in people who don't have it."

SKILLS

Apparently in my last post I wrote like Chuck Palahniuk. Win!

... That is all :)

Cravings.

My money spending is unstoppable recently, it's getting pretty bad... I drew out my last tenner yesterday so that I have some money on me if I need to catch the bus or something but I don't plan on using it otherwise, since I won't have any more until the very end of January.

I think it's all this cold weather, ice and snow. It's depressing and I am seeking solace in the Sales racks. In the past week (week!) I've purchased an oversized white tshirt with dark navy stripes and a puffy silver shiny skirt from River Island; I'm always going in there to make eyes at all the pretty clothes but I've never actually bought anything from there before because it's usually out of my price range (sad). I've bought a lace print jersey dress from asos.com, which I am in love with, the rose coloured Topshop tights pictured in one of my previous posts, a fitted black blazer and a dark beetroot-red silk tunic/dress from the New Look sales. I also bought Michael Bublé's Call Me Irresponsible album, and Jason Mraz's We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things album (finally, after listening to it on a loop for months on Spotify), and Paris Je T'aime... and I ordered The Ghost and Mrs. Muir and Dans Paris from play.com ... Oh! and 4 new pairs of shoes...


I sound like a shopaholic.
I probably am a shopaholic.
The first stage of getting over a problem is admitting you have one.

I am no longer going to spend money. At least for the time being, since I have none. Haha!
I do really love the new stuff that I've bought, so I'll probably post some pictures soon of me wearing some of it :) Maybe.

I know this post is becoming horrifyingly long but I'm in a chatty mood and since this is for my own pleasure and no one will ever read it (except, of course, you, my beloved imaginary reader) I'm going to write as much as I feel like.

Today, Bee and I watched the end of Series 5 of Gilmore Girls and the first 3 episodes of the sixth series (which is so far, depressing and infuriating) and I must have been in a hungry mood because everything they ate on the show seemed delicious to me, and made me crave donuts, and I texted my mum 5 times in around 2 hours, and all the texts concerned food, 3 of which included pleas for her to buy donuts. So I got home for tea and ate pizza and donuts and I seriously don't think I've ever been this full in my life (except for the other day when Bee and I ate Rolo ice cream with Baileys, or the time we ate an entire 12" pizza and 2 portions of cheesy chips between us before Photography, or... well, you get the point) but I feel incredibly satisfied. We watched Paranormal Activity too and my mum and aunty actually screamed, it was hilarious! Today was a good day.

I really want chocolate milkshake...

So far, so good?

Even with my Biology and Chemistry end-of-module exams coming up (Tuesday and Thursday of this week, eek!) I've really found no motivation whatsoever to revise. Instead, I've been at Bee's house, watching Gilmore Girls, eating incredible amounts of chocolate and other goodies and drinking Bailey's with ice.

The snow has still been falling with a vengeance in the North of England and is supposed to continue through to the end of next week, so you can imagine how disagreeable it has become to leave the house... I've had my bouts of playfulness, culminating in perhaps an hour in the snow before my extremities and I deeply regret it and return indoors to thaw, and it's getting a little depressing, if I'm honest. All I ever feel like doing is curling up in bed/on the sofa with my duvet, watching films or reading (and that is in fact all I've been doing). In the winter all I can think about it wearing thick, oversized jumpers, with thick tights, drinking cup after cup of hot tea. I don't want to deal with make up, or my hair... Especially when they're both ruined mere moments after stepping out of the door.

I suppose what I'm rambling about and trying to say is that I am so over Winter now. Roll on Spring!

tights.

2 posts in 1 day?! This is craziness! Insanity! How did this happen?!
Well... I was reading Garance Doré's blog and she hates tights. I lovelovelove Garance and she is seriously one of the most amusing creatures ever but I feel the need to sing the praises of one of my wardrobe staples.

I love tights. I wear them most days, regardless of the weather (I am possibly one of the most inappropriate person when it comes to dressing for the weather: it snows, I wear tights and a jumper dress; it's 30c? I sport jeans.) I own pairs in a huge variety of colours, I own patterned ones, knitted design ones (like the adorable Calvin Klein pair my mum got me from TK Maxx as a surprise), and still I want more.
I ordered 2 pairs from topshop.com the other day in cherry and mustard but, devastatingly, they were out of stock. One of my new favourite things is to wear dark coloured tights (purple or french navy preferably) under fishnets. I stole the idea from the mannequins in the Next window displays and it actually makes your legs feel warmer, weirdly enough.

I just wanted to stick up for them a little bit, because even if sometimes they slip down, or get laddered from wear and tear (or the tiniest snag from your dog jumping up) they are the best thing a girl could have most of the time, and if you love them, they love you back. They make me brave enough to wear shorts or mini dresses that I would not otherwise wear (I only wear leggings if I really have to, and they look bad with shorts anyway)... and I love them, so there. :)

I'll stop ranting now. Garance did remind me of something else, though, and that's that I didn't make any New Year's Resolutions :( So here goes;

01 continue to eat less and exercise more
02 write more
03 make time for my friends and family
04 finish gilmore girls
05 watch as many french arthouse films as possible
06 learn french

;)

i miss writing

I wish I had more time on my hands. Even though I spend most of my time doing nothing, it feels like the hours move by too quickly and that I never actually get around to doing the things that I planned on doing in the first place.

I have exams for Biology and Chemistry like next week, and so far I've done very minimal revision. However, this revision is my excuse for not writing anything fictional, or posting on here (something that could possibly be beneficial to me if only I could do it regularly enough), or taking photos... Anything that I enjoy, basically.

Kaitlyn, my amazing American friend, and I have however been doing some more writing, finally! , together. Our collaberation (nicknamed 'the awesome' because we're just that egotistical ;) ) is currently around 26000 words long and is probably my proudest achievement to date, but even that has been thrown to the sidelines on so many occasions because I just have no motivation to write anything, ever. In fact, I have no motivation what-so-ever.

I suppose we all have our creative blocks, and mine is just an extremely long one. Hopefully I'll get back into the flow of things after my exams are over...


On another note...

Our Photography homework for next week is to find a style of portrait you would like to take of yourself, so that a partner can recreate it using you as the model. Bee, my closest friend, and I were playing in the studio with lighting in darkness and I took this portrait of her...

I quite like it :) ... I'll post the results of next week's photoshoot here and hopefully they'll be as good, if not better, given that we'll have more time to prepare and they won't be just products of boredom and play like this. I'm hoping to get Baby Harry (my little brother) into the studio soon too, so that should be good fun and result in cuteness overload, with his little chubby cheeks and stormy blue eyes.

Enough rambling...

Bye x

An insight into my mind...

Hannah Rose, Capture The Castle 's blogger, wrote yesterday about Proust's questionnaire and I decided I'd give it a go, since I had nothing better to do (except copious amounts of Biology... oops) and I love doing that sort of thing... Or so I thought. I'm absolutely terrible when it comes to expressing my own mind into short questionnaire answers, plus I found that I have no particular real life heroes, which seems somehow tragic. I have plenty of people I admire, but no one really that I think 'they inspire me to be great'. I'm rather disappointed in my lack of ingenuity, and my answers turned out really... uptight and unsure and that's reflected in the standard english I inevitably used.

Without further adue, here are my answers:

• Your most marked characteristic? Good humour

• The quality you most like in a man? Sensitivity, not afraid to express his emotions, or at least not afraid to admit them to himself.

• The quality you most like in a woman? Effortlessness, or a delicateness and elegance that is refined and yet natural.

• What do you most value in your friends? Being able to be myself in their presence and thus being able to trust them fully

• What is your principle defect? Paranoia and social anxiety

• What is your favourite occupation? Writing and photography

• What is your dream of happiness? To want for nothing.

• What to your mind would be the greatest of misfortunes? To lose the people I care about the most.

• What would you like to be? A doctor.

• In what country would you like to live? New York!

• What is your favourite color? I don’t know… pastel colours, and dark colours, like French navy and pale blues and greens…

• What is your favourite flower? Giant daisies? Possibly cornflowers. I don’t know.

• What is your favourite bird? Peregrine falcon

• Who are your favourite prose writers? Jane Austen, J. R. R. Tolkien, Philip Pullman, Thomas Harris, C. S. Lewis

• Who are your favourite poets? Keats, Shakespeare, Simon Armitage,

• Who is your favourite hero of fiction? Samwise Gamgee

• Who are your favourite heroines of fiction? Emma Woodhouse

• Who are your favourite composers? Dario Marianelli

• Who are your favourite painters? Leonardo Da Vinci

• Who are your heroes in real life? None really spring to mind :\ The closest thing to a hero I have is J. R. R. Tolkien, he’s influenced my writing in many ways…

• Who are your favourite heroines of history? Elizabeth I ? What a woman.

• What are your favourite names? Darcy, Eleven, Rory, Riley, Heath, Yumi, Greyer, Colt, Felix

• What is it you most dislike? Ignorance

• What historical figures do you most despise? I don’t think I really have any passionate emotions for any historical figures…
• What event in military history do you most admire? The Spanish Armada? I can’t say any current affairs particularly fill me with pride over the actions of our country.
• What reform do you most admire? Legalisation of Gay Marriage

• What natural gift would you most like to possess? Fast metabolism ;)
• How would you like to die? Being a murder victim would be dramatic and I would inevitably die young, so not having to grow old and see my senses diminish over time … but it would be painful for my family…
• What is your present state of mind? Longing, but fairly content as things go… rather mixed emotions I suppose.
• To what faults do you feel most indulgent? I fall victim to my own lack of self esteem all the time..

• What is your motto? Take everyday as it comes.
  

x